Monday, April 11, 2011

Bad choices.. =(

So I made it to my 3 week stall.. Yippeee. Lol But today I finally lost a pound so I am at 213.6 I believe. I was stuck at 214 for a few days. But I expected it. Plus I will admit I have not been a very good girl. I so far have found nothing really makes me sick. I know I know not a smart door to open but what can I say. I know I have put myself through so much to just fall back But I won't or I hope I won't. I guess I am just that type of thick headed person that when you tell me not to touch the stove it is HOT.. I still have to see for myself. I guess I like the hard way through life. I dunno. I had been craving pizza since the day I woke up in the hospital. Well I had a slice of thin cheese pizza the other day and I had no problems with it other than the fact that I felt guilty. I know I should be taking full advantage of this "honeymoon" period. But Its hard. A lot harder than I ever imagined. I am still not able to get in all my requirements. It is a working progress. I am sorry this is a boring post but I am not up to to much lately. I am hoping to find a job soon. My clothes aren't really falling off yet but I do notice a little difference. I guess I expected to be a size 3 in a month (well not really but sorta lol) I have not tried on smaller clothes yet becasue I don not wanna get discouraged. Sometimes I feel like maybe I will be the only person this surgery won't work for. Or it will but my foolishness will just gain it back. I am trying to instill the good habits but Uggh its not easy... =)